Remembering hurts
Yet somehow, you can't bring yourself to forget
You don't want to
You love the pain
Because it reminds you of possibilities
The 'what if'
Life has always been this way
In the sea of thousands people
You will see yourself
Right there, in the corner
Trying to hide
As the emptiness seeps in
And drown you.
Day 33: Null
It is empty here
Dark as always
You can't see anything
Yet you can feel it
Deep down
You know it will consume you
Bone by bone
Until there is none left
You'll try to fight it
But in the end
You will always feel worthless
It makes you hate everything
The same thoughts
Different day
"Why am I still here?"
"How do I disappear?"
"How do I end this?"
"Why am I such a coward?"
You can't run
Even if you want to
You are trapped
In that space people called 'life'.
Dark as always
You can't see anything
Yet you can feel it
Deep down
You know it will consume you
Bone by bone
Until there is none left
You'll try to fight it
But in the end
You will always feel worthless
It makes you hate everything
The same thoughts
Different day
"Why am I still here?"
"How do I disappear?"
"How do I end this?"
"Why am I such a coward?"
You can't run
Even if you want to
You are trapped
In that space people called 'life'.
Day 11
I knew
Because I've been there
And I've done that
Could you please stop?
Tell the truth why don't you?
Tell the truth.
Because I've been there
And I've done that
Could you please stop?
Tell the truth why don't you?
Tell the truth.
(26/12/2017)
Day 7: The Island & the Sea
You are a dream, dear love
A dream that colors my soul
A dream that takes me to different places
Where we would laughs, talks, dances
And only you and I matter
And only you and I matter
When the storms hit
The paths get darker
Thoughts get heavier
You are my shelter
Like I am yours
You are a dream, dear love
And now that I am awake
Withering in this forsaken place
I'm reminded of those smiles
each and every moment
Of how they used to be mine
It may not always be this way
Someday you will have the life you deserve
And I will learn to build mine
But know that
It has always been true
Even if it was only just a dream.
(22/12/2017)
Day 6: The Island & the Sea
There is one universal truth
That I only knew now
But not then
And it took letting go
To know how much I wanted to be with
you
There is one universal truth
That you and I only knew now
But not then
And it took losing one another
To realize that all this while
we had forgotten how to be in
love.
That I only knew now
But not then
And it took letting go
To know how much I wanted to be with
you
There is one universal truth
That you and I only knew now
But not then
And it took losing one another
To realize that all this while
we had forgotten how to be in
love.
(21/12/2017)
Day 5: The Island & the Sea
The feeling is still there
I told the sea this morning
As I got ready for work
Preparing for another day
With nothing more but memories
Of all the love and laughs
Of all the pain and anger
Gone now the warmth
The sunshine of my own little world
Far from perfect, far from right
But always the warmess
The feeling is still there
I told the sea this morning
"It will get better. The pain will subside."
Was the replied.
I told the sea this morning
As I got ready for work
Preparing for another day
With nothing more but memories
Of all the love and laughs
Of all the pain and anger
Gone now the warmth
The sunshine of my own little world
Far from perfect, far from right
But always the warmess
The feeling is still there
I told the sea this morning
"It will get better. The pain will subside."
Was the replied.
(20/12/2017)
Day 4 - The Island & the Sea
Not a moment passed by
Without me praying, hoping
That it was nothing more but a nightmare
That none was broken
Your heart as well as mine
And our dreams are still there
Within reach...
19/12/2017
Day 3: The Island & the Sea
To love and to have your heart broken...
When that smile lingers
Where you can still see it in your mind
Feel it in your heart
If only I knew that we were running out of time
If only I knew...
Those times that were once taken for granted
For fear of getting hurt
Now I wish nothing but to re-live them
Again and again
So that you will walk away knowing that you were loved, dearly
The happiness, the struggles, the pain, the love
Those were the moments of perfection
That made our journey beautiful
They would taunt me in my wake
Haunt me in my sleep
It is okay, dear love
If the world doesn't want us together
Because
You will forever be my favourite.
An island,
clear blue sea.
(18/12/2017)
clear blue sea.
(18/12/2017)